Sometimes The Hardest

part of this whole thing is the getting better.  The pills, the diet.  It makes me sooo sick to my stomach.  The die-off (herx) in order to feel better for a few days can be killer.  Not to mention what this has all been doing to my mind lately.  I feel incapable. Inadequate. A burden. Less of a person because I can not give it my all.  I cannot exert my self -body, mind, and spirit to it's fullest potential.  Not like I used to.  I long for those days.  I hope for them again.